Assalamualaikum,

Hehe, mentang-mentang xpergi skolah rajin pulak aku nk mengupdate blog ni . Well, I've been thinking lately what would happen to me in future ? Will I go to a superb University ? Will I find amazing friends ? Will I find a man who is willing to be my guard ? And will I make my parents proud of me who have raised me when I just came to this world untill I am 15 years old now ? It's not really a comforting thought right ?

Hmm.. cita-cita aku banyak, and of course tinggi kan . But sometimes it hits me on the head, will I ever be able to achieve all of my dreams ? Well, importantly I want to focus on my studies and try to get scholarship so I could study abroad . I wish to study at Oxford's University . How amazing that would be, if only..

To me, if I could just study hard and get a good job at least I could make my parents proud and happy . I would love to see the smile on their faces, it would mean the world to me . I would be 16 next year, and I guess it's the right time to change . I should stop fooling around and acting like a child . If not, it may be impossible for me to achieve my dreams . 2013 would be a new start for me, and 2014 I would take my SPM( a very important exam that decides your future ) 

My mom and dad has given everything to me . Working day and night so that we could live comfortably, Alhamdulillah . Sometimes I don't get what I want and I remember me being mad at my parents because they won't buy me a new phone . Well, my dad said that it's not that they don't want to but they don't want to spoil me . Buy giving me everything that I want so easily, I wouldn't know the meaning of hardship . 

I didn't buy it at first, of course . I told my dad that my friends get everything they asked for, sometimes without them asking, their parents just give them cool stuff . But I have to work hard to get something and it didn't seem fair to me . I remember when I was in the 3rd Grade, I got the 2nd place in class for the final year exam and my dad bought me a bag that I've been wanting all the time . And the feeling of getting something with my own hardwork was satisfying and it made me appreciate the gift more . 

That was what my dad wanted me to feel . Of course if we want something there would be many obstacles but we should face them to achieve something better . It would also make us more independent, and more thankful for what we have . My dad also told me never to grumble about something that I have but just to be thankful about it . Just think about the underprivilleged who can't even afford to have what I'm having right now . Then it whacked me on the head that what my dad said was true . Wow, parents are good right ? 

So, what I am today is what my parents taught me . They taught me to be independant (still working on it ) , and thankful. They also taught me the right and wrongs,  and not to let my pride down . And I  hope I would become a great Muslim and Allah bless me and my family . I would show my parents and people around me of what I am capable of .  Fighting fighting ! :D